Me and my Depression

Well since i last wrote a blog post, I've had a few good days but also a few bad ones.
I didn't move out of the house or even get dressed i just stayed in my pyjamas for 3 days.
Yes i no its not good but i could not snap out of the way i was feeling, i didn't eat or see anyone as the children were away with family.
But i have had a few good days where i've actually got up, made an effort, cleaned and been out seen a few friends.

But tonight for some reason i feel all fidgety and cannot sleep.
I've had a bath, tried lying down a bit of reading and a hot drink but still nothing.
I've also got myself a penpal who im looking forward to swapping letters with.

Im still taking my tablets and although im having good and bad days i do feel as though they are helping, I've also started to keep a diary of how im feeling, what i have done that day which is good i sopose.

It's half term here next week so i plan on doing something with the kids which involves getting out and jumping on a train somewhere. well i hope too.

Anyway im off to try and get some sleep as i need to be up for 7am.

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Bad day with my depression

Argggghhhhhhh......
This is how i feel today, I no im lucky to have two beautiful children, family close by and good friends. But at the momment i feel as if the depression is winning and its not nice.

I've just sat and cried for the past half hour, over what exactly i can't say. I just feel like screaming, shouting and crying.
everything is getting to me and i get wound up and annoyed over the smallest thing.
Today i've had a few hours away from the children just to have some me time in the hope that i would feel a little better for it but as horrible as it may sound i just don't feel any better i really wish i did.

well sorry for another mini rant and post.
Hope all my readers and followers are ok xx

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